Loving your neighbor

I am a Christian not perfect, just forgiven and to be completely honest there are times I feel like I need to be forgiven alot more then the average Christian. And the reason for this blog is to chronical my way back from being semi backsliden to completely right with God. Even that statement makes me think are we ever completely right with God. And yesterday this commandment helped me realize I will always be asking for forgivness:
Mark 12:31 The second is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.”
I wish God would have made it an option and not a commandment, because I realize that there are times I can't do it. Like when my children are involved if I even feel like you look at my children in an out of pocket way I am ready to pounce on you. Imagine how bad I must be if I feel you are trying to endanger them?! Yesterday someone looked at my children wrong and the last thing I did was love that person or let them see the love of Christ in me. So why would God give us such a commandment and why and how does He expect us to keep it? Is it even possible? And dont be so quick to say "yes" be more honest with yourself look deep within the recess of your heart and mind.
And then you know what comes to mind, God not Jesus, God comes to mind He gave His only Son for me, for us, and he let Him suffer so we could have the greatest gift ever. If He tells me to love my neighbor as myself then I can surely not attack a lady for looking at my children with disgust and show her a little Christ like love. Yes I said little after all I am human and not perfect and trying is all I can do..
So my expermiment today and for the rest of the week is to try  harder then I ever really have to show Christ love to everyone I meet and to love them, love them as though they were my neighbor. I will let you know how this works out.
The Experiment of Me :-)